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  Okay ... Even Surroundings are murmuring but I'm okay with my own company; No doubt. It's indifferently different thing that sometimes i need People or atleast one person around me to have some gossips for a night and to spend some quality times but my inner me fights with me all time and i lost the war everytime so I'm pretending just to stay out of the surroundings. Surroundings are those you know me the amount of how much i allowed them to know me. I avoid.   It's not like i don't have friends, well-wishers, connections; ofcourse they are with whom i can hangout but my inner Vibes and instincts doesn't make me feel to ask or say yes to them whenever they ask. I never wanted having Quantities like number of people for me or with me,But desperately i needed one person for sure with qualities like i can feel comfortable,soulfree, cheerful,free to talk about what I feel deep inside and also i can reduce my hypertension, anxiety and etcetera etcetera... With tha...

  From a caregiver-   When you least expect it,Nature has cunning ways of findings our weakest spot. Just remember: I'm here. Right now you may not want to feel anything; may you never wanted to feel anything. And may be it's not me that you will want to speak about these things but,Feel something you obviously did . Look... You had a beautiful friendship, may be more than a friendship and envy you. In my place,most guardians would hope the whole things goes away,to pray that their loved one land on their feet but I'm not such a guardian. In your place if there is pain; nurse it, and if there is flame; don't sniff it out. We rip out so much of ourselves to be cured of things faster like we go bankrupt by the age of thirty and have less to offer each time we start with someone new-But to make yourself feel nothing so as not to feel anything---What a waste. A monologue from "Call be me by your name"-Don't kill it ,that i loved so much and thought to share w...

we all know who they're”…    On Thursday 26th January 2023 two occasions jumped in a same day;One is 74th Republic day which has its own culture and heritage all over the states of the country and the another one is Vasant panchami that is Saraswati Pooja in honor of the goddess Saraswati, is a festival that marks the preparation for The Arrival Of Spring .   Saraswati Pooja, The festival is celebrated in Indian religions in different ways depending on the region. But while it's very intersting to have both occasion at time it's unseen somewhere: Republic day heritage. Republic day culture of past too many decades only reflect on Students of schools,Teachers & professors and many officer grades services,is that? Common people, residentials and etcetera haven't even talk about this great historical achievement day. Perhaps it happens on every republic day but on 26th of 2023 it is much precisely see able that Not too much but also no too least people are enjoying the...

Not livable enduring this great world, may Someone is groaning, Someone who  is fading by the purpose of God, No one is giving up on life, Hmm... I know it is just a fraud, Nothing can stimulate but a smile works a lot Through which one can make others just jealous or Glad, There are Scars, Pains hit as does the sword May it be all the intention of the Lord, It will never get weird The thing to accomplish is Just to express their lives through their words. And so that you grazed what I wrote.

A landscape appearance, not too far but a meeting of impossible possibility   Not contradictory,it’s all about God’s plan of Creativity A thin line like sword’s edge Only differentiating two orbital cage One might be Immortal while another is definitely mortal From Mortal i belong and you are also giving hats off to mortals having guts to challenge immortal Instantly, a blank dark sheet floating over my head There and then full of lightning vibing around I’m sitting upon my bed Twinkling like stars which is in reality all signs of having scar A star,only the sparkle of that headed film There could be more but it’s today’s night theme.

Why can't you,if they are Alive? …Just in front of me sitting up with my Comfortable Posture A door that opens in the balcony has a building closer, Beside my vision looks a bit left for no reason That building of more than five stories holding up too much weight of floors has a plant of sesame I found it there,stems cracking the wall and they are strong enough ,grown long grasping many leaf Leaves …are floating with the blow of wind They are Alive , They seem to be happy and have a smile Cuddling together, kissing each other looking no complaints they have about isn’t right or its not fair I observed their roots… scrambling out on the wall appears as their foots It’s too easy to grow in soil but their fate took them up on walls where it’s nearly impossible to uproot They are Alive, their Green flicks shouting their victory of life Why can’t you if they are alive… #lifesupportcontent,#Selfheal,#mental health 

    Some feelings are like old familiar friends, Depression is like that for me. When I'm not in it, I don't remember.I remember it's bad,I remember darkness,but it is different to feel it again. It's the difference between remembering what a room looks like and actually walking through the door in that room. Being inside it again, feeling it again.  When depression starts,it can be slow at first.An instructive thought appears,“I don't want to be here”and assume it's gone like you bat it away like a fly or a bad smell. But when it hits you fully though when you are really in it,it's everything;Its Who you're, you're nothing else. On the outside, You look the same smiling and pretending is so much work but inside its a different story. You start to hate yourself, you're so alone;so unbelievably Alone. And you can be with someone you Love but you're not really with them.    “We think we know what's going on with other people,but we don'...

“ It's my fortune to have you unfortunately, no matter how long it will go”.            When are my musings about you going to come to an end? When will my longing for you be fulfilled? You have no idea how much this bothers me or maybe you are pretending to be a stupid  to avoid my desperate Love for You. Maybe you have trauma of your past love Life that you've lost because of  your Childish behaviour,your reckless attitude,or your foolish insincere efforts or maybe more than this you did,but as soon as you lost you found you lost too. I got your fear, have caught your feelings little near which is more than enough and dedicated my all attention towards you for you to be Loved truly by someone no matter how reckless, insincere and fool you are. I forgot myself so far , you're my moon although I rejected shiny uncountable stars. It's still hard to distract you towards me because you're afraid of losing someone again but what do you do if i say I'v...